CELEBRATING THE LAUNCH OF MY NEW BLOG!!!
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Hari ini gwe officially meluncurkan blog baru gwe di blogger.com dan permanently hengkang dari blognya friendster yang tidak memberikan kebebasan sama sekali untuk mempermak layout designnya. Konvensional gitu loh, hari gini masih pake template jadi :p.
But thanks anyway buat databasenya FS yang rela beberapa saat untuk menampung tulisan gwe yang singgah sementara, but you’re picture gallery still rulez dude.
My friendster blog juga masih bakal dipertahankan eksistensinya, considering gwe butuh upload banyak gambar bokep disana ahiahuehuehue, jadi intinya dua blog ini merger gituuuu *pake logat anak SMA*
Some of the articles we’re my previous posting on friendster’s blog, i combine it all here with my new posts. Especially for you my lovely previous reader :D.
Thanks to Dearly God, Vanya for the blogging inspiration... you still have the best blog article ever sistah, thanks to Nia also.. she’s a friend of Cis and i assumed dia belon kenal gwe ehehehe but thank you for allowing me to ngejiplak your tag-board and bravenet hit counter (is she allowing me? I dunno :D), thanks for Apple corporation for inspiring me to use this clean white blog interface, it did look futuristic indeed, and thanks to all of you, my future visitors hehe, thanks for coming.
Well then, enjoy your read ride!
Letter - For Renny
November, 06 2004 11.42 AM
Soundtrack waktu tulis surat: Eka Deli – I’ll Remember You
Dear Renny, –
Today i packed up my stuff and found your picture there. It was your old black hair pictures that used to take for radio announcer registration. I keep it since i figured out it was you. Now, i looked at the picture again and i realize that i will gonna missed you so badly since you’re not here anymore.
Time goes by so fast. So fast that i just realize that all the good times with you had passed away. Again, it hurts... like other memories that we’ve already lost in time.
I’ve already clipped the picture along and put it on my roomdesk. Simply to remember you.
God only knows, may He gave the best for us. All i can do now is make best wishes for you there, and may you have all the good things that life my bring. Amien.
Be well my dear...
Me,
Fatih
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This letter is originally written on November, 6 2004 for my friend Renny when she’s temporarily moving to Jakarta for her acting school. I found her picture while i was packing up my old stuff. It reminds me of her when she’s still having her shoulders long black hair. She used to have it on her early semesters. I think i’ve already loose her that time, i thought she’s moving to Jakarta for good and i never see her again. I felt, It just so many untold story that left between us if she should leave so fast.
By staring at her picture, reminds me of how fast this time can be, how many precious moment that we should not loose in this life if we can just for a minutes appreciate them, appreciate the people around us who becoming the part of our lives and shape our journey also change the way we live and the way we love.
Sometimes we’ve just know how precious is someone can be when they’re not here anymore with us. Now, she’s coming home again, and i got my second chance to tell her how much she meant to me.
Glad to have you back :)
L 2724 YC OBSESSED!!!
Note: Sumpah, kalo ada yang tau siapa orang yang gwe maksud, ato mungkin significant othernya orang yang gwe maksud tau kalo gwe yang mosting ini, mampus deh gwe. Atleast, gwe cuman mau nulis jujur disini, no lie attached, capek gwe nahan terus.
It all started a few years ago, exactly on 2001 when i was stepping my early semester. Her name is Tyas, she just like another typical cutey FIA chicks around. Gwe ngga inget kapan persisnya gwe mulai noticed ama dia. As i remember, waktu itu gwe masih having a bunch college tasks buat dikerjain dan masih sering barengan ama si Nia. Yah karena busy tralala dan banyak achievement yang pengen gwe capai waktu itu, notice concentration gwe ama dia sering kebagi. Belon lagi part the long and winding road gwe ama ‘seseorang’ yang udah jadiin my body and soul berantakan, cukup nyita waktu gwe buat healing my devastate heart yang udah lebur that time.
At the beginning, kita (seh, kita... gwe kali ye) sering flirting around kalo ketemu di kampus, firstly, gwe kira dia majoring communications juga sama ama gwe, until then i figured out kalo dia dari jurusan laen. Nah, pas waktu flirting session itu, gwe keseringan lagi jalan ama Nia, which i'm sure dia ngira si Nia tuh pacar gwe. Dan apesnya lagi, kalo gwe udah niat cari dia buat ketemu (pathetic ya gwe, nyariin dia tanpa tujuan gitu, bodo ah, penting gwe dah jujur) tanpa Nia, eh dia ngga ada. Giliran ada si Nia, eeehhhh... you can guess it rite? :p.
So then, time passes by... and semester difference drift us apart. In my college, if you have a semester difference, you also have college schedule difference, yang jadiin gwe ama dia jarang ketemu, plus as i mention above, dia ama gwe majoringnya beda.
Until the years change, dan sempet ada saat dimana waktu itu mo KKN dan gwe lagi abis briefing kelompok ama si Meldha. As we walk by, we met her in the basketball games di deket rektorat kampus, she said hello to Meldha and stared me with her georgeous look (believe me, one special thing about this lady is her georgeous look and sensual expression who can flight you high into the sky). I stunned, sampai gwe sadar Meldha pulls my hand buat jalan balik ke kampus lagi. That time i felt regret kenapa gwe ngga minta Meldha ngenalin gwe ke dia, even still till now.
Few months after kepulangan gwe dari KKN, RCTI calls me for approval to my job apprentice application, it means gwe harus leave Surabaya dan stays di Jakarta untuk beberapa bulan. I felt extremely happy that time, as you know, having job apprentice di RCTI is one of my biggest dreams, and now it comes true. That makes me forgot her for a numbers of time. Di saat yang sama, gwe juga sempet crush sama Silvy, one of Rudy’s friends yang kebetulan jadi freshman waktu itu. I spend my days in Jakarta like a busy bee, got no time to breath, no time for love life, no time for essentials thingy, just loaded with creativity, productivity and bunch of ideas to deal with the internal and external Public Relations kinda stuff. And i totally forgot her...
January, 14 2004 i’m home, with total memory loss of her. Public Relations syndrome charged fully in my blood with a lot of story to tell for dearly friends in Surabaya. Tapi ya itulah cinta (am i have the right to say this :p, if not, i’ll apologize), few days after, i saw her glance around the campus, and that feelings grow, again, deeper and sweeter than ever before. Sampai disini gwe ngerasa dia tuh udah kayak bagian dari diri gwe yang hilang, it grows... it really grows, more than i ever imagine.
Now, physically she’s changes a lot. She used to be very thin a few years ago, and now she is appeared to be one adorable sexy lady who could make every guys droolin ahahaha. My friend Adji told me that she got the ‘hormones’ injection thingy which affects to her body structure and make her more plump and full :p. Aahhh... whatevs, complicated girly stuff that i never understand. Nah, jadi ngga nyambung kan gwe, it turns to be physically ahiahuehue.
I oftenly find her in my dreams, and sometimes it happen continously, over and over again. Isn’t it weird?, isn’t it strange for someone that haven’t know me yet?, yes... rite dia belon KENAL gwe, dan gwe belon KENAL dia, we never officially KENALAN each other :p. Kay fellas, you can laugh out loud now, cause in fact i still have no gut to introduce myself to her. Now, i’m looking forward for it, and it just matter of a good time. Now or never at all. It would be my biggest disappointment if i haven’t know her until my graduation day.
Today, i’ve tried. Tapi yang diatas mungkin belon mengizinkan. I chased her on the way to her car, but suddenly my friend Bunga calls me and we having slight conversation until she just passing by right in front of me. That chance simply flew away, just like that.
Like it or not, she’s already becomes the part of my life now, and i will deal with it, i will deal with you dear. Welcome to me, i’ll keep you gently.
I’ll make another shot tomorrow, do pray for me friends.
Note: What else that the most pathetic, lowest thing a human can do beside writing an article like this?. Guys, you should kill me for this :D.
