April 30, 2005

Physically Minded


I used to be physically minded, dan gwe ngga mau a second in my life gwe jadi seperti itu lagi. I hate it. And i would even curse myself kalo gwe balik menjadi orang seperti itu. It just like the lamest attitude that human being could do.

Gwe sadar kalo orang diciptakan dengan kelebihan dan kekurangannya, dan ngga satupun orang di dunia ini yang bisa nentuin bakal seperti apa ketika dia lahir. Toh kalo mereka bisa milih, pasti mereka bakal bikin list order sesuai dengan apa yang mereka mau, mau cakep lah, kaya lah, pinter lah bla bla bla.

As a human, bukankah seharusnya mereka sadar kalo itu sebuah anugerah?. It’s a gift because dengan beragam kekurangan dan kelebihan itu akhirnya mereka bisa saling mengisi, saling membutuhkan, saling berbagi dan mencintai di dunia ini. Toh, ngga ada orang cakep kalo ngga ada yang jelek :p.

Makanya gwe benci banget kalo ada orang milih temen, pacar ato apapun itu, hanya berdasarkan penampilan aja, dan gwe dah ketemu segambreng orang yang kayak gitu, i even hate it more because i used to be in that kinda attitude seperti yang gwe bilang sebelumnya. Bah! Narrow minded banget seh mereka nentuin pilihan based on the outer look only.

And it turns to be more serious matter karena mama gwe seems to be orang yang seperti itu. It makes me really sad, to face the facts that she is someone that i really loved. Gwe selalu bilang orang yang purely physically minded tuh ngga punya hati, mati rasa, narrow minded, lack of emphaty. Karena mereka lebih di fisik aja mereka bisa berbuat gitu, trus mereka ngga pernah mikir apa, kalo keadaan itu berbalik ke mereka? Mereka ngga sadar apa kalo manusia itu more than just porcelain flesh and skin?. Tapi gimana kalo yang bilang tuh mama kalian?.
Mom, should we fight again? I’m just too tired :(


- Quoting Ryan: “I can’t change where i’m from, but i can change where i’m going”

April 11, 2005

An Unsent Letter...

This is something i've been working on for a while and
I was hoping that a certain someone would be here tonight
But I don't see him
So I guess I'm gonna get it out anyway...
It's funny what you can do in front of a room full of people that you can't even seem to do it for one person...
It is the color of light
The shape of sound high in the evergreens
It lies suspended in hills on blue line and a red sky
I'm looking at sound
I'm hearing the brightness of high bluffs and almond trees
I'm tasting the wilderness of lakes, rivers, and streams caught in the angle of a song
I'm remembering the water, that glows on the dawn the motion tumbled on earth life hidden in mountains
I'm dancing A bright beam of light I am, remembering... LOVE

-eka deli-


Y’ello love

How are you today?. Love, i miss the days when i could easily talk to you... laugh with you... walk with you... and those memories that i can’t leave behind. I wonder if you even remember those times we had. I miss them love, ...do you?
Now i have to go back to reality, love.... now i barely even see you... i barely even talk to you... i barely walk with you. I’m not as happy as i was when you we’re by my side.
It was a miracle that yesterday i could finally walk with you. I was really sick... you asked if i got to sleep last night... after that you just walked away from me... i said goodbye... but you’re already far away... you just walked away from me...